What I wanted I got!!!

      Have you ever been in a situation and feel that there is no way out?  Or have you ever wanted something so bad and when you finally get it, it is either not what you expected or it is too much for you…  Well, I am now in a situation that I have wanted for a couple of months; but how things were looking I thought I was never going to get it.  I was living in a fantasy world and oh was that fantasy wonderful…  A lot of the time young ladies want something so bad that they dream about it, think about it, and even move on it prematurely.  I have what I wanted but now I am not sure how to handle everything.  This is so natural and it feels great.  You tell me, how should I handle everything?  I am enjoying the conversation, the “wining and dining,” and most of all I am enjoying the fact that I am in a relationship with someone that I know some much about already…  I went through some time by myself low key enjoying my singleness, I went through some time of trying to find myself, and I even tried the whole idea of casually dating, and I hated that.  I don’t care what no one says your feelings still get involved.  Because let that guy or girl you are casually dating, casually date someone else and you just so happen to see them out holding hands or even possibly holding each other, how would you react?  Would you be mad, jealous, or okay?  Hard question isn’t it?  You should ask yourself those questions every time you catch yourself in this situation…

            I am content right now.  Well, actually I am sort of nervous because I am now in a relationship with my best friend.  We have been close and quite frankly getting closer every day since September.  It has defiantly been an emotional rollercoaster that was unstable and unhealthy.  We are in ministry together, we praise God together, we love each other and we both want this to work out.  It is somewhat scary because I often think of the negative instead of the positive.  But I think about what would happen if we do not work out and how that would affect everything.  We share so many things with each other.  We are both involved in ministry together; his group and cell group, we both share the same friends and it is now to the point that some of my family members and him are close.  But I try not to worry about it because I know God will work it all out for the best.  I also know that if it doesn’t work we will still be cordial to each other, still be friends and even love each other enough that if we end up with other people we will be able to be happy for each other.  I do not know what God has in store for me and I am excited to see who I get married to.  Okay that’s enough…  God will reveal that to me when I am ready for it… Have a good week and thanks for reading my blog.